One of my least favorite words. That, and wait. Or later. (Have you figured out i'm not a very patient person?!?!) I thought hurrying up to wait with the Air Force would slowly break me of that, but so far not so good. It's only seeming to aggravate me more!
Stephen left yesterday afternoon to do his inprocessing at Eglin this weekend. Boo! It's Mardi Gras here and he's there doing "death by power point" as he calls it. The weather has been really nasty this weekend anyway so he's not missing much, actually I haven't gone to any of the parades. The real reason i'm writing this post is to bitch about not knowing things. I'm a planner. I don't do change/spur of the moment very well. I'm a thinker, I have to weigh things out and think about options.
We're in an inbetween place these days, and I HATE it! Lately i'm asked, "What are you guys going to do after the wedding?" "What's your plan for after graduation?" "What's Stephen going to do now?" Well people, I simply do not know. Yup, that's right I don't have one single clue. I can speculate all I want, but in all reality Natty could probably give you a better answer that I can!
So far we absolutely love the air force! Stephen's plan was to put in at least his 20 years so he could retire USAF. Me? I love to travel, I would pack up the apartment tonight if they said they wanted us to PCS somewhere new. Well at the time he enlisted, Stephen's recruiter convinced him reserves is the way to go. So now after 9 long months of training, we're just kinda stuck. There's option called Seasoning Training, where it's basically 6 more months of hands on training for Stephen with his reserve squadron. He would go 5 days a week, 40 hours and it would be active duty, but it's only for 6 months. Then it would be back to the "what's next" question unless by then we can figure out how to make the switch into active.... Seasoning Training details are still up in the air until "tomorrow". My least favorite word! Stephen text me after he was done for the day today, and when I asked him about the training he said he wouldn't know until tomorrow. I told him how much I hate tomorrow. He always laughs at me and just says, "I know, baby." Because after three and a half years he's fully aware of how impatient I am!
Now me on the other hand.. another nerve racking thought. I've been in school continuosly for the last 18 years. I knew every year from August to May I would be taking classes. Not anymore, as of April 30, 2011 I'll be a college graduate. Which means time to break into the real world! This thought terrifies me. I don't even know where to start. Where do I want to look for jobs? What kind of job do you even really want? So I really NEED a job?? Where will we live? Should we move to Ft. Walton for the next 6 months since Stephen will be working there and I can probably get a job there? Since it is only 6 months should he commute and we just stay here?
Well, I have no more answers now than I did when I started this blog. Here's hoping that I will have more answers tomorrow...
" I can't think about that right now. If I do, I'll go crazy. I'll think about that tomorrow."---?(Anyone know who said that famous quote?? It's one of my all time favorite's!)